The Day Before the End

Today is the day before the end;
The end of another year
And a million emotions along with it.

A year in which I have picked myself up
From the most profound depths
To a place where I can once again see light.

A year in which I became no longer my old myself
But rather battled and wagered
To become a better version...

One that did not repeat the same mistakes.

A year in which I put a stop
To hopelessness and lost causes
And began to focus on the only life I can control.

This year, which brought so many heartaches
In the form of pleads and guilt trips,
Also brought forth newly found resolution.

"To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference."

This year, what a year, was the one
Which saw a major change in direction
For a woman who’d had enough of lamenting.

What a year for this woman, I myself,
To decide that she would not allow
Herself to be cast aside and be another victim.

This year brought a higher level of understanding,
Not only of things written in books
But of the way that people work.

Is it really just one year?
Since the [important] people in my life rallied ‘round
And showed me nothing but love and support?

This year, wow, another year
Is the year in which I have taken so much
From those around me who were willing to give.

And this coming year
Is the year
When I leave (not for long)
And share it all with the world.

January 30, 2009